I am fucking exhausted. Everyone expects the most of me. That doesn't bother me; because I expect the most out of myself, too. What annoys me, is when people mistake my kindness, as me being a push-over. [P.S. I'm kind, not stupid.] I can spot these people from a mile away. These are the people who are so self-involved, that they don't care what they put me through, just the benefits it will ensue onto them. You give them an inch, they take a mile... and now I'm used, abused and now I'm very tired.
It's not in my nature to ever expect anything from anyone. My mentality has always been, "if you don't expect anything, you will never be disappointed." However, shit happens to everyone, and sometimes you just need someone by your side [for support]....and at that moment, none of these Felicia's were anywhere in sight. (If you are reading this wondering if this is about you, it probably is.) Just be ready 2017. This is the year of "No" for me. I am not doing anything I don't want to do! If I don't feel like going to your birthday dinner...where inevitably I will order a water and get a bill for 60 dollars (because you and your friends are cheap) -I'm not going to go. I don't care if its your graduation, wedding, or a farewell party (for you getting sold to prostitution) ...If I don't feel like going, Bye! -And forget about presents, my presence is the best gift and if I'm not there, nothing for you, whore.