Before being an adult, I never thought anxiety was a real thing. I thought it was something boring people complained about for their lack of personality. Needless to say, karma came and slapped me in the face, for being such a stupid bitch. On March 1 it was my birthday. I don't know what came over me this year, but the very thought of it, sent me into an anxiety attack...complete with cold sweats, and nauseous. The closer the date came, the more intense my symptoms became. The few days leading up to my birthday, I have never felt more depressed. I am not a sad person, so I didn't know what to do besides listen to that sad Sarah McLaughlin song [from those animal cruelty commercials]! I was in no mood for birthday shenanigans...anxiety/depression, paired with heavy drinking sounded like a trip to the Los Angeles County Jail for me. I was completely overwhelmed with emotions. -Nobody likes getting old, but it wasn't just that...everything came rushing through my head; flooding my mind. Every decision I made, all my life choices, careers, relationships...even little things were spending way too much time lingering in my mind... And then, Regina George cracked.
My friend Becka was still adamant about coming over to see me on my birthday; and pobrecita! She got more than she bargained for. I felt like a hysteric homeless person crying and laughing for no rhyme or reason. ...But, everything happens for a reason. I thought I needed to be alone, but what I needed was my friend there making me laugh, and telling me about "starving children in Ethiopia" to snap me out of it. Bless her heart! I am happy to announce that I woke up feeling renewed...Think Ramona Singer Season 3 of Real Housewives of New York "renewed." Sometimes a good cry, and much needed laughter is all you need to get rid of that dark cloud hanging over your head...and great friends ...and sometimes medication. Just remember everyone goes through shit, and bottling it up can cause more harm than good.
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